Ron

Ron has been unwell since 11 May 2008, when he was rushed to hospital by ambulance in huge amounts of pain. It apparently came on very fast while he was feeding Kellie her morning bottle. He was letting me have a sleep in since it was Mother's Day. It was all he could do to get from the lounge to the bedroom to wake me up and get me to call 000.

It was terrifying. As he had to rush out our bedroom to the backyard (we have an external sliding door) because he needed to be ill. My main memory is that he was covered in little beads of sweat, especially on his head and he was in agony.

Over the next 10 weeks he was in hospital for the majority of it. They kept discharging him but he really needed to be there. One turn around time was 6 hours.

The stuff I googled about Acute Pancreatitis just made my blood run cold because it is extremely serious as the pancreas is a very necessary organ. It's also one organ that cannot be replaced by a donar organ.

He had surgery because a cyst burst. He's still very far from being recovered - he's in a great deal of pain all the time and taking heaps of morphine to cope.

This all worries me a lot, I wonder how much of his pancreas is being eaten away? When will he start feeling better? It's so frustrating because I just want to make him better and nothing is helping at the moment. Mostly I just hate seeing my darling husband in so much pain.

Today, Kellie through up all over him and I rushed over with a cloth and when I saw it, I automatically started rubbing it off. Bad move. I caused Ron to have a very bad night and thus I feel awful about it.