Back Again

About a month ago, I wrote this very long instalment. Since it was late, I decided to leave it for the night and proof it in the morning. Read ~ wasn't truly sure if I wanted to really share all of what I had to say, so I needed to sleep on it. Even though barely anyone I know reads this, I'm not great at sharing some thoughts. Well, we had a blackout during the night and I lost the lot, so the point was moot anyway.

Ron's going back to work tomorrow. Gosh we are nervous and worried. He's still got pain in his abdomen in one spot that isn't too bad but he also is still very tender in places. We are very scared that he might do something to inflame it again and then we might be back to square one.

Hopefully his work will give him light stuff to do for the first few weeks to build him up. He's been doing more and more around the house and is even able to pick Kellie up now, so he is getting better. We just hope so much that all goes well. We really need it to.

It's been a very long 3 months. I am looking forward to hopefully getting back into our day-to-day routine. I get nothing done when Ron is home or when I'm stressed over him. I'm craving normality so i can think again. LOL Although I will miss the sleep-ins I've had for the last week. We had to tell Rieley this evening that Daddy would not be home in the morning. He was quite sad about it as I knew he would be which is why I wanted to give him some warning and not just find out in the morning.

He's such a gorgeous little man (I know I am prejudice) but my goodness he is so funny and loving. What amazes me is his love for the alphabet and numbers. I would have thought he would be bored with it by now but he sings the alphabet song at least 100 times a day. He gets his blocks and tries to build words that he sees. He brought his letter to me the other day and spelt out 'rocket' - he'd seen it again on 'Word World' (one of his favourite shows) and built it himself. He's done that with quite a few words now.

I'm working on what words start with, at the moment, letting him guide me as to how much and when he wants to learn. I'll build a word, like 'cat' and then get him to find an 'm' so I then spell 'mat', etc. He loves playing that game. I'll say a word and ask him what it starts with. Some sounds he is great with and can recognise but others he doesn't get yet. He has also started to write letters occasionally and he's copying quite well. He has been able to recognise all the letters in the alphabet for months now.

We play 'hide and seek' sometimes and he now has to count to 20. That's so much fun because when Rieley hides you really don't have to look for him, you just follow the giggles. He also gets such a kick out of finding us. He's doing a lot more interactive play with his toys too now which is great, he makes up scenarios sometimes ones that follow what's happened around home but others are pure immagination.

Kellie is growing up so quickly, I realised the other day that she really has grown past the 'baby' stage and is definitely a toddler. Very sad moment. She and Rieley love playing and they rough and tumble on the couch, falling off and she just giggles. She says "Hello" and (we think) "Here you go" and "up". The rest is a jumble that I can't recognise. She loves being chased and a good tickle. She has such a beautiful laugh. Kellie is also very sassy - she knows her own mind and always has, very stubborn, very definite if she doesn't want to do something. She wouldn't go to sleep tonight, we would go in and settle her - 5 mins later she would be rattling her cot. After about 45 mins, I decided to give her another bottle. Got her up which was rewarded with a big smile and fed her a bottle.

Before I put her back to bed I was cradling her in my arms, she was so relaxed and so trusting. looking me straight in the eyes with a little smile. My heart almost pounded out of my chest with love - such a beautiful, sweet moment. Then, still cradling her, Ron was giving her kisses too and she just looked so loved and happy - she didn't want to be doing anything else. I didn't want to put her back to bed but knew I had to, she went straight to sleep - I reckon she might have gone to sleep smiling. :)

I (of course) have loved Kellie from the moment she was born but in a way, I don't think I really bonded properly with her until the last few weeks. In a way it sometimes feels like she is 'accepting' me more too.

Today we went to a photographic club meeting (our first), we took the kids of course. Rieley was running around with some other children and we had Kellie in her pram. She hadn't had her morning nap which is generally at 11 am for 2.5 hours and it was midday when the meeting started. She sat there for the most of it just happy to listen and didn't complain. I was so proud of her.

Anyway enough rambling.